I’m just scared. Part of me has contemplated on staying home and taking online classes for the rest of my college career. I’m going into my junior year with little to no friends on campus and my best friend from home goes to another college 10 hours away from mine.
I woke up this morning with a deep heaviness in my chest. I either want to cry or lay there numb and staring at the wall. I’m so scared that fear is literally paralyzing me.
For someone who’s shy, starting the school year is terrifying. Especially when you don’t know if you’ll have anyone to sit with during meals.
I’m going to miss my mom. I trust her more than I trust anyone on this earth and she’ll be 6 hours away from me. I feel like my first year was easier than this one. I was ready then. For some reason I’m not ready now.
Do you feel like this too? What do we do?
In times like these, it is crucial that we have Scripture in our pockets to remind us that we are not walking this life alone. Also, it is important to really define what we are afraid of.
Mean girls. They terrify me, but God understands:
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them for the Lord
your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Lack of funds for tuition. Where am I going to get the money to pay for school?
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing (Psalm 23:1).
Little to no friends. I’ve been praying for friends to hang out with on campus or study with.
Therefore I ask you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive your sins (Mark 11:24-25).
Missing home. What about my dog, Daisy? Who’s going to take her for walks every morning since I’ll be gone?
Praise be to God and the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and all comfort (2 Corinthians 1:3).
My blog will fail. I know God has called me to do this, but I don’t believe in myself.
The one who calls you is faithful, and He will do it (1 Thessalonians 5:24).
I won’t meet my future husband. What if I’m supposed to meet him this year and I completely ruin God’s plan?
Blessed is she who believes the Lord will fulfill his promises to her (Luke 1:45)!
I could keep going, but this would be a 7 page blog post. My point is that, even though we’re scared, God isn’t. He knows exactly where we are, what we’re feeling, and what we’re afraid of. He knows that this is a chance for us to grow closer to Him. In our fear, let us come running to our Lord so He can take care of us.
It is going to be ok (I’m telling myself this as well). God will take care of us. We are not alone. If you feel like you can’t do it, bring your worries to Him and He will take care of you. I’m also here to support and encourage anyone as well. You are safe here. But, most importantly, you’re safe in God’s arms.
Let’s rest there for a little while.
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